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Singer in Canandaigua, New York, United States

Just another 18 year old old soul who a lot of hardships have happened to me. I am a very inspiring person, because even thought I have to struggle with all the stuff that happened in my past, being poor as a slug, and having much bad luck every single day, I carry on with hope. I have never lost faith that I will get my day of fame, and I will never lose hope.I was given many talents from birth such as singing, dancing,acting, song writing,choregraphy,etc, and really have been waiting a very lo... Moreng time, to me, for my day in the spotlight. I am willing to work ASAP, and whenever, and wherever, and I am willing to change myself and hair in anyway for any role or job. I don't care how many tears I have to shed, or what I have to go through, I am set on this and don't care if people think I'm crazy or whatever. I am living proof that you can go through extreme hard times, and still come out with faith. I didn't turn to drugs or alcohol or smoking for any reason. Even though I was born into a poor family, we were extremely sheltered and taught never to do that stuff. People were jealous that our house got the most attention in our neighborhood, even though we were poor, and it wasn't a very cool house.We also had a lot of arguing problems in our house. We all slept in the same room every day for years so of course we definitely got under each other's skin all too often. We all slept in the living room so we could watch movies and have fun. Every single night I always had at least one, at least one,friend to hang out with. Everyone from our neighborhood came over to our family house that was in our family for years. Then neighbors moved next door. We were friends for a few years, then they turned on us and turned us into social services. We stopped talking to them. They kept calling like every month it started out. Then, years passed, and it became more and more ridiculous. They would call if we breathed the wrong way or something, I swear. Year after year, they also turned every single person from our neighborhood that I grew up with and knew since I was born, against us. Remember, this was so slowly, year by year,just everyone that knew me, everyone I loved and grew up with in the same room. They all just turned on us because of these neighbors, but hey they were rich, I guess in real life money always wins. They kept calling, and everytime they did they would come out and tell us nothing was wrong with us or our house so it was harrassment. Years and more years, they finally found something wrong with our house. So, we went to court, us VS. them, for our house. That court day was terrible. Seeing all the people on their side, all the people who I knew and always looked up to. I thought of all of them as family and they would just turn on us just like that because they wanted our house for the space?! WTF!?? Needless to say me and my family, I have 3 younger sisters that went through it with me, and my mother, and step father at the time, and grandparents, after all of this we never really could ever trust anyone the same way ever again. It was really hard cleaning out my house, packing everything up. This was the house my grandmother and her family grew up in. These were bullies, bullies with money. Did you really think this would end with we got to keep our house? Not this time, they took our house from us. Everything was wrong, they must have paid a lot of people off. What can i say? Does justice even exist in life? Not to us, I suppose. Anyway, they took our house. I remember when my grandmother asked me to take pictures of every room in that house one last time. I remember I was the most emotional. As I looked through every room, all of the memories flashed back at me all at the same time. All my emotions. I saw all the good times and bad times, but all I could remember were good times. I can't believe it's all over and gone now. I didn't care so much about the house, but the people. They were all gone, and for what? No reason. It still makes me tear up every time I tell this story. I took the pictures, sniffling, and left, forever. And to add insult to that, they took it from us, just to put up little shrubs where our house used to be. This whole thing lasted 8 whole years of our lives. 8 years of torture and hate. We really didn't need all of this. We were already poor and going through hardships in our household enough. We REALLY did not need all of this. Anyway, of course me and my sister, we went through just a downward spiral of depression. It just got out of control and I really don't think the scar will ever go away. I suppose it did make us stronger. I found out that I can go through all this crap and still have a heart, hope, and faith that one day it would get better. That's all that I kept hoping this whole time, is when are things going to get better for us? When? Will there ever come a day? We were poor, and also, I swear to GOD every single bad thing that could possibly happen to anyone, just happened to us. There was so much going on, it lasted my whole middle school and high school years. Because of all of this, in school, I just shut down. I stopped talking to people, I closed up, year after year I just got more and more closed up and worse. The worst time was the last of my high school years, it was so bad, every time I went anywhere, even school, every time I looked someone in the eye or even thought about it, my eyes would start to tear up, just for no reason. This even happened in school, when I went to stores, even at home with my closest friends and family, even when I was in my room all alone. I was completely the worst I ever was in my whole life. I also went through one of those school shooting type things, but I'm not going to bore you with that story. I have to admit, I have been finding myself more and more everyday. It's funny how terrible things can happen on just a typical day. Just another day, you wake up, and things can just go wrong. You never believe it until it actually happens to you. Anyway, I still have to face this bad luck thing. This thing where every single day just every single thing that can possibly go wrong, just goes wrong. The only one I have is GOD, when it all comes down to it, and you have NO ONE else, HE'S the only one who's there. HE is the only one that I trust and the only one I probably ever will trust. Now it's in the past, so I need to get over it. Things have to get better. I won't except a NO, I will NEVER except a no to anything I truly want. I will never give up hope and faith. I don't care what I went through, and I don't care what I will have to go through in the future. Sorry this is so long yall. My life is much longer. Please email me at charliesangel2714@yahoo.com or call me at 5859195482 if you are interested in me for anything. Less